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Question - what should people do?
I am serious like a goddamn heart attack, what do you think posting "BUT SHIT IS REALLY BAD AND PEOPLE SHOULD FREAK OUT" without any kind of suggested action is good for other than feeling morally superior?
"but people need to KNOW" - why? Why do people need to stand in this paralyzing fire hose of negativity and horror UNLESS THERE IS AN ACTION ITEM IT'S POINTING TO? Why do people need to feel more scared and helpless? Why is that good, other than punishing "the liberals" or "the leftists" or "the centrists" or whoever it is you're still mad at about the election outcome?
What you are doing is saying "look at all this awful shit that's happened" - key word HAPPENED, as in, can't be undone - "you are not nearly upset enough about this!" - how is telling people they are gullible, stupid and wrong for not panicking and doomering accomplishing anything either?
Maybe, just maybe, if now is the time to act, SUGGEST ACTIONS, jesus christ.
Like for example, live voice calling, faxing, or paper-mailing their Senators and representatives about the funding freeze, since those are physical items that they have to interact with/cost money unlike emails that just disappear into filters. And also getting hold of your STATE governor/lege to let them know "fuck Trump, this is not what the people who elected YOU want."
Like supporting government unions so they can protect their members.
Like contributing to food banks, clothing drives, and organizations fighting homelessness to increase their ability to help if people start getting forced out of jobs.
Like supporting journalist-owned news outlets like RawStory and ProPublica.
Like volunteering and/or donating to civil rights organizations to advocate where these structures are being dismantled.
Like teaching people who don't know how to fucking read so we can eventually dig ourselves out of this goddamn hole.
Like all the shit on this helpful list of actions to take that are neither attending a protest or voting.
Like checking in on their colleagues and friends who are directly affected by this shit? I did this today (I am one degree removed because a lot of the funding from my department comes from NIH, but do not myself work for the federal government. And similarly, I know people at NCI/NIH, like actually meatspace know, and yes, I am very worried about them!)
How about instead of just screaming at everyone "it's too late! everything sucks! why aren't you all screaming everything sucks!" why don't you help people who already feel overwhelmed, scared and like they're too small and useless to make a difference even if they tried, to know what they CAN do.
Otherwise, you aren't hurting Spraytan Hitler and Wannabe Lex Luthor, you're helping them spread chaos, fear and defeatism.
Every time I see "um actually executive orders take time to implement" I want to shake you and actually point you at the literal communications and actions happening IMMEDIATELY in the federal workforce. Which is what these orders are targeting.
The Dept of Ed already put people on paid leave and took down 200 web pages and cancelled 2.6 mil in grant money. The National Institute of Health, which is the biggest federal funder of biomedical research in the country/world, just cancelled its grant review process because those grants and the reviewers were all trained to include diversity support statements. This is happening to the NSF. NASA already started putting employees who do DEI on paid leave and encouraged other employees to snitch on people. The CDC is not allowed to communicate with the public.
This is happening now. Who the fuck cares of it gets challenged in court? It's *happening now.* Reversing it in court in several months (if we're so lucky, which I am NOT confident in, actually) does not necessarily give people back their jobs (or put them in a position to accept them if they are legally forced to get a chance to return to them) and does not undo hostility in the workforce that this has sown and does not give out grant money that was withheld.
And it's not just DEI. it's Accessibility too. It's happening *now.* Policies are getting reversed, and people are going to lose their jobs. Period.
No one is looking at the news and actually reading it. Everyone is just biting their nails at the headlines and letting people falsely comfort them that they don't need to worry or do anything yet.
#us politics#stop the fucking circular firing squad#if you want people to do shit TELL THEM WHAT TO DO#people who are not terminally into politics online generally don't!#the US hasn't taught mandatory civics classes since the 90s!#doomerism
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premedmajor!reader x businessmajor!simon
authorâs note: i have been going through it recently so itâs important to note that this is completely self indulgent. like, completely self indulgent.Â
simon is a business major. your stereotypical one, at that: endowed, frat boy, fuckboy.Â
you're a premed. not as stereotypical as him, but people could piece it together from your behavior patterns if they had a bit of intellect. youâve been told your entire life that medicine is what you were going to do, and as jackson avery said, âwhen you grow up hearing the same thing over and over, you canât really think about doing anything else.â so when people tell you that you fit your major, you have to grit your teeth and say thank you.
you knew you shouldâve hated him when you met him. youâd been dragged along to a frat with your friends and were outside taking a break from all the sweaty bodies and 110 decibel speakers when you ran into him. he was smoking a cig â which was funny, you thought, because a pen or a vape you would've expected, but... a cig? he offered you one but you shook your head, âthose things are bad for your lungs.â he had scoffed. âthere are other routes that can kill you faster, yâknow.â
but, for whatever reason, you didnât hate him. almost like you could tell there was more to his story than the reputation his friends had told you about, basically having given you a verbal dossier on all the boys from the frat when you were getting ready to go out mere hours earlier.
and you were right. heâd had a terrible childhood: father abusive, mother a victim, and younger brother an addict. his father viewed him only as the heir to his business empire, not as a son. he had to get his mba to become his fatherâs right hand man in their business tradings and unlock his trust fund. even though he had never been given the chance to decide his fate for himself, he was smart enough to know heâd be a fucking idiot to throw the cards which were given to him away.
you were shocked upon hearing his story. mainly because your background was incredibly similar â father abusive, mother a victim, a younger brother you missed every day, whom you had to leave at the house you wished to never see again. your father cared more about your future than you as a person â become a doctor, at any cost. and he meant any cost. your friends, your sanity, even your life. âboth of your parents are doctors. anything else you do will be the same as working at a mcdonaldâs. we have a reputation to maintain.â
simonâs dream had been to become an astronaut. what kills you whenever you think about it is his father had had the means to help him become on, but he just hadnât cared. youâd had many dreams: racecar driver, actress, federal agent â all shot down the first man who was supposed to teach you what real love looked like. it had been your senior year of high school when youâd finally come to terms with your fate, having realized there was truly no way out of it, giving yourself some solace by remembering there were worse career paths to be forced down. plus, by the time youâd gotten your medical degree, simon would be in control of his fatherâs business and you two would be free to do whatever you pleased, with the means to do whatever you pleased. you want last minute garage passes to the abu dhabi grand prix? done. simon wants to take the both of you on a trip to kashmir this weekend for a month? not a problem. the common factor of your fathers using money to control you both finally, after decades, being damned.
so you two found solace in each othersâ company.Â
on tuesdays you both had a gap from 12 - 2, so you'd have lunch together. or, moreso, si would force feed you your lunch while you hastily wrote up your lab report for orgo which was right after.
fridays were your movie nights â your exams, reports, and labs for the week all done, you always crashed on fridays. you couldnât even begin to think about actually using your brain, so si would pick you up around 6, take you to target to get whatever you were craving, and then it would be back to his apartment. your favorite movie night was watching la la land in a makeshift pillow fort where the blanket had collapsed on you two a few times throughout the movie, causing multiple tickle assaults where simon claimed the perpetrator must've been a ghost haunting his apartment. he didnât understand why everyone said the ending turned it into a horror movie â that was before he watched it. he had been sobbing silently by the end of it, and you had to apologize for the movie choice while kissing all over his face before he even thought about forgiving you.
sundays were always interesting. the mornings were lazy â you two tangled in the sheets, unwilling to let each other go until it got too late to ignore the blistering rays of the sun coming in from his window. the nights were hectic â you were always finishing assignments and quizzes youâd put off until the last second, and he always had hours of meetings before the workweek began. at this point, youâre sure the target regional sales managers have been wondering why their data shows an uptick in sales of instant coffee and strawberry apricot red bulls on sunday afternoons. that's how much caffeine was consumed on sunday nights.
it was healthy, in a way â the anger you couldnât hold towards your father for whatever reason you held towards simonâs, and the anger simon couldnât hold towards his own father he held towards yours. both of you knowing the other had a person that fully understood them, understood their reactions to seemingly normal situations, understood their anxieties, and understood how they operated after 19 and 20 years of only being told they were deserving of conditional love.
and thatâs the other thing â the unconditional love was scary, at least at first. you loved him loudly. talking about your boyfriend to all your girlfriends, all the time. instagram stories youâd clearly worked on for a while before hitting post. getting visibly jealous when another girl tried to make a move on him, not caring that everybody could notice you practically turning green with envy.Â
he loved you more quietly. a package by your doorstep heâd never mentioned buying with whatever new trinket youâd saved to your paycheck week pinterest board. waiting outside for you after you mentioned you knew the dayâs lab was going to be a rough one (grignard reagents), ready to scoop you up off your feet and take you home. the nuances in both your childhoods leading to the difference in how you two expressed your love for one another. you were shocked by how much was said in the unsaid, how loud his love could be with the smallest of actions. him, on the other hand? he was just shocked someone could love him as publicly, as undeniably, as you did.
and it wasnât only healthy because you two shared similar life stories. you didnât know how to describe it, but when you were with him, you felt like youâd known him your entire life. within just a few weeks he could predict your every move, your every word. he knew what you were feeling before you could put a finger on it. he was your ghost, always your shadow, so much so that he knew everything about you.
and you were his fawn, always jumping or spinning or pacing or running circles around him with those big doe eyes of yours, laughter bouncing off the walls, a ball of energy, his own personal sun.
he brought you security, love, the external masculinity you desperately needed in your life. you brought him a reason to wake up in the mornings.
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#i TOLD YOU GUYS this was completely self indulgent you cant even get mad at me#simon riley x reader#simon riley x you#simon riley x y/n#simon riley drabble#simon riley imagine#simon riley fic#simon riley au#call of duty#cod#its 1:31am i have to be up at 7 for a commitment im thinking i skip it what do we all think#adri's writings
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Can you write something with Damian X Reader where R is an extremely intelligent girl, to the point of having discovered the secret identities of the entire Batfam only two months after moving to Gotham, and who is constantly in the Bats' action scenes (Like she shows up anywhere they're fighting criminals just to recite one by one the reasons why she's sure they're the Waynes, even with all of them denying it and pretending she's a complete crazy person. A bonus if Damian "hates" her (it's actually just misunderstood love because she's just awesome and he can't handle himself)). By the way: your Batfam fanfic is great!
Sometimes Things Aren't As Plain As They Seem
Pairing: Damian X F!Reader
Warnings: Self harm, blood, mention of torture near the end
Reader and Damian's age aren't specified and I'm really sorry but you can tell I gave up at the end I've also never written for Damian so he's probably ooc
You've held a secret for the past few months now.
No one else knew this secret of yours. Well, except the people involved in this classified information. Namely, the Wayne family and those close to them. In fact, this secret wasn't even yours to share.
What this secret was? The identity of the vigilantes that patrolled the streets of Gotham. Yes, the birds, the bat and those that worked with them in Gotham.
Your first hint was almost instantaneous after moving here. After all, who would have enough money for all those gadgets that Batman uses? Almost every citizen has come to realise that he doesnât have any powersâ with the exception of a fewâso the only other reason would be man-made technology. But those costed money, and most people in Gotham could never afford those, so that left the rich or those with connection to them.
After this realisation, you made it your mission to find out their identities. It was a personal goal of yours, another thing to add to your list of achievements. And you did it. Just two months in to living in Gotham at that.
However, you needed confirmation. You were almost certain you were right, but you needed one final confirmation. You had doubts. The main being that it was hard to believe that someone from the high society of Gotham would even think to help the poor without a hidden motive. Bruce WayneâBatmanâhad proven himself multiple times, yet the doubt would linger at the back of your mind.
So what better proof than word from the mouths of the heroes themselves?
Lately, Damianâs been dreading the patrols around Gotham. The reason being was this girl, around the same age as him, you.
In almost every patrol, you had interrupted them. You had somehow found out their routes for their patrols, even when they tried everything to make it impossible to track them. When questioned, you would say that there is a pattern in everything, thatâs what made people human. Human, not a hero, not a killer, just human.
You would constantly put yourself in danger, just trying to get an answer from him and his father. You would always list reasons why Gothamâs vigilantes were the Waynes. It was almost endearing annoying.
In fact, you were a danger yourself. You were a risk. You could easily spill their identities.
So tonight, he would warn you. Save you. Unfortunately for you, his job was to analyse anything and everything about someone suspicious, and in his familyâs books, you were one. Fortunately for him, you were easy to find, because just as you said, there is pattern in everything.
It was another night of you trying to get your final, solid evidence. You snuck around the streets of Gotham, heading to the area where you next expected Batman and Robin to start their patrol.
As you made you way, you felt eyes boring holes into you. You reached your hand into your pocket, clutching the pocket knife inside. As you heard a thud of a pair of feet landing on the ground, you turned around, shoving the knife at the personâs throat.
Your eyes widened when you saw a familiar domino mask staring back at you. RobinâDamian Wayne. What the hell? Youâre usually the one to look for them, not the other way around. Whatâs with this turn of events?
â(Last Name).â His voice is sharp, not even bothered by the knife pointed at his neck.
âRobin? Why are you here? Youâre not supposed to be on patrol yet.â
âOf course you would know that.â He mutters under his breath. âYouâre putting yourself in danger. You need to stop or we will make you.â
âI- what?â You stumbled back, confused at his words.
âStop following us. For your safety and our own.â
âWell maybe if you finally gave me answers, Iâd finally leave you guys alone.â You cross your arm and roll your eyes. You knew you were being stubborn to a fault, but you really wanted this confirmation.
âAnd what will you do with this information?â He returns the action and raises his eyebrow.
âNothing. Swear on my life.â
âAnd how should I trust you?â He asks, skeptically. There was an awkward silence between you two for a moment. You stared into each otherâs eyes, before you put the knife to your palm and let the blood dripple down on the ground.
âMay Lady Gotham herself place a curse on me should I lie.â You see his face twist, trying to make sense of what you just did. This was probably a stupid idea, but you needed answers. After all, the saying goes, curiosity killed the cat but satisfaction brought it back.
âWhy did you do that? Do you know what youâve just done?â Robin was dumbfounded. Who in the world would someone in their right mind make an oath like that just for some answers? Apparently you. He was almost amazed.
âOf course I do. Just tell me what I want to hear already.â
âFine. Youâre right. Will you stop putting yourself in danger already?â He sighs defeatedly. A smirk forms on your face, another goal achieved.
âI was right.â
âYou were right.â
âWell, thatâs all I needed! See you around wonderboy!â You turn on your foot, not waiting for his reaction to your nickname for him, and start walking back to your house. Youâll definitely be recording this down in your journal when you arrive.
âHey wait! You handâs still bleeding!â You stop in your tracks and look at your hand and back at Robin, now confirmed Damian Wayne.
âItâs fine, it doesnât hurt that much. Iâll just bandage it up at home.â Actually, it did hurt, but you wanted to look cool in front of him. I mean who wouldnât want to in front of the guy they like?
Another silence falls between you two. You could see the conflicted look on his face, even with the domino mask covering half of it. You mentally laughed at his expression. After a few seconds, he seemed to finally come to a decision. He reached for your wounded hand, and you hesitantly let him hold it.
âAt least let me help. I have some gauze in my utility belt to cover it.â This boy really was full of surprises, first coming to you to threaten you and now heâs helping you fix a self-inflicted wound. You truly chose the right guy to have a puppy crush on.
âAlright.â He held your hand gently, like you were fragile glass that would break in one wrong move. He pulled out a roll of gauze and wrapped it around your hand. You can hear him muttering stuff under his breath before finally speaking up.
âYouâre actually crazy. why would you make an oath like that?â
âAww is little birdie concerned about me?â You teased him.
â(Last Name).â He remained serious, but you reply with a chuckle.
âI donât plan to break it, so it wonât affect me at all.â He looks up at you, a disapproving frown on his face. You return with a smile and his face flushes before he goes back to fixing your hand.
He finishes up quickly and lets you go home.
As you finally walked back home you could feel somehow following you, but you didnât feel threatened. You knew it was Robin.
The next few nights, you left a few art supplies on your window sill, and by the time you would wake up, they would be gone
This eventually evolved into letters that you would write to him. At first, you were met with silence, but you pursued. Eventually, you would finally see a reply and from then on, you two became friends.
Unspoken words lingered between you two.
They remained unspoken until a rumour goes around the rogues of Gotham that you knew the identities of the vigilantes.
You, not having any connections with them, lived in blissful peace. That is, until youâre kidnapped and tortured for your knowledge.
You spend hours in pain, never spilling a word. Not only because of the oath, but also to not put Damian in danger.
After a few hours, you were finally saved. High in emotions, Damian accidentally takes his anger out on you, before realising his grave mistake.
He isnât greeted with your smirk, no, instead he sees your tears. Thatâs when heâs forced to confront his feelings.
During your recovery, he visited almost every day, apologising profusely.
The tension doesnât go away even after your fully recovered, but you slowly but surely warm up to him again.
It takes a while to get your friendship to normal, but when it does, you get closer and closer.
In fact, you would say you two were closer than before. So it would come to no oneâs surprise when you two eventually ended up in a relationship.
Some explanation -
The oath is basically self-explanatory. Should you break it, Lady Gotham would place a curse on you. It honestly just came to my mind while I was writing this and I liked it so I decided to add it
I also wanted to play around with the sentient Lady Gotham so yeah
Anyways, I'm so sorry this is kinda bad đI might rewrite this one day since I'm really not satisfied with it
I had to dance around the topic of reader being smart because I honestly didn't know how to write that
Tysm for the request tho! As much as I struggled with it, I absolutely loved the idea <3
I wanted to go into more detail but I got writers block in between and didn't want to make it multi-part so I had to do that last part like that đ„Č
You guys know the drill, any mistakes are free to be pointed out and I will fix them as soon as possible
Don't know if anyone actually reads my long ahh A/N's, but if you do, asks are encouraged as I do love to interact with people and they give me motivation
#astraeus-tree#damian wayne#damian al ghul#damian wayne x reader#x reader#x female reader#batfam x reader#batfamily x reader#batfam#batfamily
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I was thinking about this, a teen reader, who is in possession of the fox miraculous from the series, is present during the 2.5 and 2.5 trailblaze quests and because of the reader having the fox miraculous, most people assume that their a foxian but their actually just a human, and their just using their illusions to mess with some Borisin.
âA dance of Lies, a Truth untoldâ
Summary: In the bustling streets of Xianzhou Yaoqing, you, a teen in possession of the powerful Fox Miraculous, live a double life. Gifted with the ability of illusions granted by Trixx, the spirit within the pendant, you navigate the tense environment of a city on the brink of conflict. Amongst the renowned warriorsâFeixiao, the Vanquishing General; Moze, the Shadow Guard; and Jiaoqiu, the blind alchemistâyou remain hidden, your powers a closely guarded secret. When the Borisin forces attack, your illusions turn the tide of the battle, though the warriors remain unaware of your role. As suspicions rise, you grapple with the weight of your secret and the hope that one day, they might understand who you truly are.
Tags: Feixiao x Reader, Moze x Reader, Jiaoqiu x Reader, Action, Found Family Secret Identity, Fox Miraculous holder Reader.
Warnings: Mild Violence (combat scenes), Themes of Secrecy and Self-doubt, Emotional Tension around identity and trust.
The warm, bustling streets of the Xianzhou Yaoqing were alive with the usual hum of activity, with merchants shouting their wares and people hurrying through their daily routines. It was in these moments that you blended in seamlessly, your presence unnoticed, much like the fox that prowls in the shadows.
You werenât just any ordinary teen. You were the holder of the Fox Miraculous, a powerful artifact passed down through the ages, giving you the power of illusion. When Trixx inhabited the pendant, you could transform into a fox-themed superhero, a skilled illusionist whose abilities made you nearly invincible. But you werenât ready to reveal your secret to the worldâespecially not to the renowned warriors who prowled through the Yaoqing.
Feixiao, Moze, and Jiaoqiu were among the most respected figures in the region. Feixiao, the Vanquishing General, known for her exceptional martial prowess, had earned a reputation as a force to be reckoned with. Moze, the Shadow Guard, was a silent and chilling presence, feared and respected by all. Jiaoqiu, though blind, was a master of alchemy and healing, carrying the weight of the world in his gentle yet burdened heart. They were not to be trifled with, and certainly not the kind of people you would trust with such a delicate secret.
Yet, here you were, standing in their midst, keeping your true nature hidden behind a veil of illusions. The pendant around your neck rested gently against your chest, its warm glow pulsing softly beneath your shirt. You hadn't activated it yet, but you couldnât help but feel the temptation as the trio discussed the increasing threats from the Borisin forces.
Feixiaoâs voice cut through the chatter, her tone as commanding as ever.
âYouâre sure about this? The Borisin are getting bold. If we donât act now, theyâll invade without warning.â
Moze, standing to the side, his eyes piercing through the conversation, nodded. âWe strike first. Prevent the invasion before itâs too late.â
Jiaoqiu, his eyes closed as always, his expression one of thoughtful concern, added, âBut at what cost? How many more will we lose in the process? My healing powers can only do so much.â
You had grown fond of these warriors, despite their hardened exteriors. They had been through much, each one scarred in their own way. You understood their pain, their struggles. But you couldn't afford to let them see who you really were.
You were just a human, after all. And if they knew the truth, they might think you were a foxian, one of their (no, Moze doesn't include in this) kind. But you werenât. You were far from it.
With a quick flick of your wrist, you adjusted the pendant under your shirt, trying to steady your breathing. As you did, the whispers of the Borisin reached your earsâsomewhere in the distance, their presence was palpable, like an unsettling shadow.
Feixiao was the first to spot the movement, her gaze hardening. âPrepare yourselves,â she commanded. âWeâve got company.â
Your mind raced, and you quickly slipped into the shadows, willing yourself into the familiar calmness that came with your illusions. You could see the Borisin soldiers moving closer, but to them, it was as if they were walking into a mirage. The air shimmered with distortion as you began to weave your illusion, your flute appearing in your hand.
A single breath, and you played the soft, haunting melody. A ball of energy formed at the tip, and you flung it into the air, scattering illusions of yourself in every direction. The Borisin soldiers faltered, confused by the sudden trickery. They werenât sure which way to turn, as you danced between illusions with the grace of a fox in the wild.
Feixiao, Moze, and Jiaoqiu fought valiantly, but they were not aware of the true cause behind the confusion. They assumed it was just the environment playing tricks on their enemies. As Feixiaoâs sword cleaved through one of the soldiers, she glanced back at you, her expression unreadable.
âYouâre hiding something,â she remarked sharply, her eyes narrowing, though she didnât press further.
You stayed silent, your illusions concealing your nervousness. You couldnât let them know. Not yet. They would never understand why you were hiding the truth.
Moze, who had been silent for the most part, stepped forward after the last Borisin soldier was taken down. His piercing eyes scanned the area. âImpressive,â he muttered. âBut how did you do it?â
âI just⊠had a little help from the shadows,â you replied, forcing a casual tone.
Jiaoqiu, standing at the back, tilted his head slightly, his keen sense of intuition telling him something was off, though he couldnât quite place it. He gave you a soft, thoughtful smile. âYou have a gift. Perhaps one day, youâll share it with us. But until then, we must all carry our burdens, yes?â
The weight of his words settled on you like a heavy cloak. Despite everything, despite the secrets you kept, you felt an unspoken understanding with him. He, too, understood the price of power. He, too, knew what it meant to carry burdens in silence.
As the group began to move on, you couldnât help but feel the heavy tension of your secret. They didnât know. But maybe, just maybe, one day you would tell them.
For now, though, you would remain a shadowâa fox in the night, hiding your true form beneath a veil of illusions, even as your heart longed to be seen for who you really were.
#x reader#honkai star rail#hsr#honkai star rail x reader#hsr x reader#feixiao#feixiao x reader#feixiao x you#moze x reader#hsr moze#moze#moze x you#moze x y/n#jiaoqiu#jiaoqiu x reader#jiaoqiu x you#jiaoqiu x y/n#teen!reader#action#found family#secret identity#fox miraculous
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âWe need more morally gray charactersâ you guys can barely handle topaz and jade.
#yeah I said it#hsr#Honkai star rail#topaz hsr#topaz and numby#jade#jade hsr#hsr Jade#hsr topaz#like theyâre not good but their not mustache twirling villains yâall#yes topaz did mess up by not telling bronya the actual success rate if she accepted the deal#but you have to remember she was indoctrinated since she was a kid that the ipc was good and that those who surrendered to its power will#succeed and thrive#hell they may have used examples like boothills home planet as warnings#of course she would think the ipc is good and will#help jarillo#her home planet was on the brink of collapse when the ipc came and it was quite literally life saving#even though it did mean robbing the future of a population to work for them topaz so grateful for the ipc and sees it as a way to pay back#you guys are forgetting that she was willing to sacrifice her position and that she was happy the planet could be independent#now we donât know much about jade but she doesnât go seeking out desperate people#those people come to her and accept those deals knowing full well every detail and itâs cost#she may get some pleasure from it sure but sheâs just doing business with people#and yet I see people view them as villains and yet not call out aventurine with helping the ipc take control of penacony#heâs a victim yes but so is topaz when it comes to the ipc manipulating them#topaz has good Intentions and is just following what she has been taught since childhood#look I love aventurine I really do but heâs not pure and at the end of the day both him and topaz are people they are flawed#theyâre not completely bad or good#sorry it was mainly about topaz we donât know much about jade and I might change my mind on her when we do
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This is what happens when you elect corruption. You fell for his bullshit and now you are in the hot pot with the rest of us. If you think this targeting of all illegals for deportation is not going to have real economic consequences, think again. America's dirty little secret of their love affair for cheap non retaliatory labor that they don't have to pay properly or give benefits to is what is costing Americans jobs... not the illegal. It's greed. Do you know the other acronym for "FEMA" when disaster hits? "Find Every Mexican Available." Who do you think rebuilds this country when disaster hits? Who do you think has had a long history of sending their military here to help too? Any guesses? Mexico! If you want to start blaming the Mexicans for everything wrong in this country then you need to take a long look in the mirror and ask yourself if you aren't part of the problem too, because you blindly believe everything bad you've heard from those abhorrent politicians who have only one mission today... distract you from the ugly shit they are actually doing to this country. The opioid crisis didn't start in Mexico, it started right here in the united states with big pharma pushing their highly addictive drugs on people. Doctors were paid to prescribe Oxycontin, so they were handing it out like candy. People really need to start aiming their ire toward the greedy bastards that have no real interest in the American people or how we get by, because all they want is to line their pockets any way they can. I know many of you think you want all the illegals out, but I wonder, if you hate them so much, why do you love their food so much and why the fuck do you celebrate Cinco de Mayo? When I was in college, I was working in grocery store deli. It was a big chain back then. I don't remember who was in office at the time, but I remember local news casters warning people to stay away from places where large groups of people congregated like the mall, shopping areas, and farmers market, because immigration was out picking people up. I remember going to work one day and they had a big ass light navy green and white immigration bus that looked like a prison bus parked in the parking lot to try and snatch people up. The raids didn't last very long and in that month, the grocery store took a big hit due to lack of customers, overtime paid to people who came to work to fill the void for employees who were not coming to work out of fear they would be arrested even though they were legal, and loss of product that couldn't be sold before expiration. The shit Trump is doing right now has real economic consequences, you may ]not see it right now, but you will... we all will, and it's not going to be good. He's already started off on the wrong foot, and of course he is incapable of the slightest empathy for the victim's family members of the plane crash, instead he would like to blame Obama and Biden... someone needs to remind him the HE is the one at the helm it is his responsibility and his duty to take accountability. Or should we be asking the neo-nazi shadow president Elon Musk to take accountability? Other people are writing his executive orders and he's just signing them. He is absolutely clueless of half the shit he is agreeing to right now, because he doesn't read shit and he doesn't want to hear shit, he'd rather be golfing... but let's just keep pumping out those meme coin scams.. for those who have lost all on his coin keep this in mind, 80% of the money made off that coin went directly to him... that is almost unheard of in the crypto scam scene. Usually it's lower because it's spread out between many people... but I digress... tldr we are fucked!
The First Felon could never be hired. DEI standards laugh at reject hacks like Trump.
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What a plot twist you were. [x]
#Like. The narrator introduces jc to us as the antagonist#Then we got to know him. Not who people think he's. But who he really is#And we saw jc giving wwx a piggyback. Giving him soup. Rescuing him. Putting himself between wwx and any danger (madam yu/wen soldiers)#And even the staged fight. It's yk. Staged#jc wanted to protect wwx at any cost. But wwx wasn't willing to compromise. But jc did#The fight was wwx's idea. Because jc is an enabler (just like jfm and jyl)#jc is ready to bend for his loved ones sake#The point is. Every action jc takes. Is in the name of his loves ones' safety. And surprise. wwx is one of the people jc really cares about#Even after wwx' return. Aside a broken cup. jc isn't doing much to stop wwx or anything. We know that jl was able to free wwx from Zidian#only because jc - Zidian's primary master- wanted it!#And jc fling himself into danger countless times to save wwx even though wwx can't sit still with him for a hot minute#What I wanted to say it's that the jc is presented to us - the mean ungrateful man- is very different from the real jc -#the indulgent uncle who rolls his eyes at his nephew antics. the brother who buries the hatchet for his sister's happiness.#the uncle who kinda wants to help wn to get up from the floor because he was an ass to jc but he helped jl and that's what matters to jc#the sect leader who let two women speak freely their mind in a patriarchy society#People better than me have already said this. shit I can't remember my point lmao#Like. jc is presented as an antagonist but what this man wanted was an apology and an explanation#This post is a mix of a rant I wrote last year (ha) after seeing a bad take. About what I don't remember lmaoo. And me wanting#to make gifs of wzc in this scene. Why does he look so good. It should be illegal. Seriously#jiang cheng#*mgifs
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#random personal stuff#personal whining ahead feel free to ignore#kind of struggling right now (what else is new)#I was up past three last night having A Crisis#I'm burned out and I know why I'm burned out#but there's no good solution#and on top of that there's some shame and the ever-present need to Restrain just how awful I am#(ha! this time I will have proof for my counselor that I am in fact the worst and I'm not just making that up)#there aren't any viable other life options & who knows if I wouldn't just be exchanging one struggle for another (worse?) one if I tried#the current situation is stagnant and sucking out my soul#people keep telling me to do A Thing for it to improve but it costs money and energy that the current situation isn't leaving me much of#and I don't even know if The Thing is really what I want anyway even if I could do it#I went into this with such ridiculous starry-eyed ideas of helping people but for a long time now everything has seemed meaningless#the same mindless repetitious tasks forever until I die#stuck behind the same desk and not mattering at all#but it's the only thing I can do and I don't know what I would want to do if I had the choice#maybe not work around people again ever which would be better for humanity in general#anyway I want to ask for prayer but I don't know how/what to ask about?
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A lot of people have tagged this with the sentiment of "yeah the actual betrayal for me was that he didn't ask my pro mage Hawke who's been with him the entire time on the same side of the fight to help him" and just. I need to make this very clear since this is my post:
I (along with my Hawke) did not view that as a betrayal either. Communication breakdown absolutely, among other things. But not betrayal.
It isn't a betrayal to me when the game makes it pretty clear both explicitly and via subtext that Anders does not tell Hawke or involve them beyond lying about gathering bomb ingredients because he is trying to protect them. It is one thing to Want to involve them, it is another to actually do it and to put them in the same danger he knows this will put him in. Hawke's status is mentioned multiple times both via codex and by Meredith herself to be the one thing protecting Anders from being taken by Templars and it's ALSO the only thing protecting a mage!Hawke as well. If Anders directly involves them at all beyond the small part he already asks for, he's risking not only himself but them as well. And idk man, I really cannot find it in me to blame him to want to spare Hawke the backlash this is guarenteed to cost him especially when you remember what happened to Karl at the very beginning of all of this too.
Lying to Hawke and all that about the bomb ingredients? Thinking that Hawke will want him dead because blowing up the Chantry and doing something so radical is unforgivable? That I can understand being viewed as a betrayal especially of Hawke's trust. (Even then I'm Personally more willing to forgive them because being that mentally ill and suffering that many years from systemic oppresion is bound to affect your more rational thinking.)
But not involving Hawke more because he loves them and wants to protect them? Not a betrayal to me. Never could be.
Thinking this afternoon about how so many people who romanced Anders considered him blowing up the Chantry to be a betrayal and how that just. Never really clicked for me to call it that. Because so explicitly So many times over the relationship he tells you this will be messy and never easy and at one point even explicitly says some things are bigger than he and Hawke's relationship and it is just. So clear that he loves them but they can't and won't stop him. And I cannot feel betrayed at all when he was upfront about that consistantly tbh.
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Maybe I did this to myself but it does irk me when people see me knitting and they ask who itâs for and I say itâs for me and the immediate reaction is âyou should sell itâ yeah⊠let me spend at least a weekâs worth of my free time making an item I like, want, and would wear just to sell it on etsy, making at most a ÂŁ2 profit on materials and not being compensated for my time whatsoever đđ»
#i say maybe i did this to myself because historically i have gifted most of the items i have knitted#because the venn diagram of things i like to knit vs things i like to wear is actually 2 circles that donât touch#i looove making hats. i HATE wearing hats#also i love making baby clothes but i donât have a baby and iâm not going to have a baby#however lately iâve gotten really into knitting socks and i really like to wear knit socks. itâs like the most affordable way for me to get#quality wool socks. and iâm going to be watching my shows anyway. the time will pass anyways#but it feels like people are deliberately making me feel weird for wanting to make stuff for myself and not profit off my hobby#and like iâve made 3 pairs of socks to gift already because âtis the season or whatever. and iâve started another pair for a friend whose#birthday is in january#genuinely itâs very weird to hear âyou should sell itâ or âoh i want one!!â about an item iâm making for myself. after 18 years of gifting#or donating basically everything iâve ever knitted. like iâve gifted 2 double bed size crochet blankets#everyone iâve known whoâs had a baby has gotten a cardigan or a blanket or hats or all of the above#i spent october making poppies for the church. iâve never even stepped foot in my village church mind you. my neighbour asked me to help#do you know what i own? that iâve knitted? a pair of mittens and a pair of socks.#you want some socks from me? alright. thatâs anywhere between ÂŁ6 and ÂŁ10 for the yarn and thatâs optimistic#iâm currently making myself a pair with hand-dyed yarn that cost me ÂŁ18 including delivery#the needles i use cost me more than ÂŁ10. time⊠letâs call it 24 hours per sock#i donât know anyone with 18 years experience who makes minimum wage so letâs call it an even 600 for my time. tbh#DO YOU SEE how this isnât a viable side hussle??? i physically cannot charge what my socks are worth#if i like you and youâre willing to wait; socks are free or cost whatever the yarn costs#if i donât like or know you venmo me ÂŁ620. and youâre still going to have to wait.#just pisses me OFF when people suggest i make an etsy page and they say it like theyâre doing me a favour or giving me great financial#advice. like youâve seen me sitting here all evening and iâm barely done with the cuff.. do you actually think selling these for ÂŁ20 maximum#is going to help me out. iâm not selling them. theyâre FOR me. iâm making them because i want them#also when my friendâs family was saying this to me and i was like âwell the yarn cost a fiverâ and they got quiet and i was thinking yeahâŠ#a fiver is the maximum you cheapskates would pay isnât it. a fiver is cheap sock yarn bought on sale. or yarn that probably isnât actually#good for socks. like donât presume to give me financial advice when youâre this out of touch with the market please#next person who asks when iâm going to start selling socks is getting this whole rant in entirety tbh i donât care anymore#personal#edited to add that i didnât even get into etsy fees or whether i would even be noticed among the mountain of dropshippers LOL
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I literally feel like I'm dying and I need to see a doctor, but I can't worry about that right now because
My bank account is literally in the negatives because I'm too disabled to work and can't make money but I can't worry about that right now because
I'm months overdue on getting my car new tags, but it won't even start if I could drive it so I need to jump the battery and get gas which I don't have money for, but I can't worry about that right now because
People are still expecting me to be social across numerous friend groups and it's pulling me in so many directions that I'm stretched so thin I'm running on no social battery for the last month, but I can't worry about that right now because
I still need to actually clean the house, do the dishes, clean the cat litter boxes, vacuum, and do my laundry... but I can't worry about that right now because
I still need to actually set up my new desk so I can stream since I haven't been able to do that for weeks and streaming is unfortunately my only source of income for how little I make every month, but I can't worry about that right now because
My partner is going through a really hard time right now and I need to be there for her and do what I can to make sure she's okay.
#People like me don't make it man. We just don't.#I'm hyper dependent on others to the point where I'd be homeless without my partner#I'm stressed day in and day out I get messages from people who want me to play games or hang out or just chat and I can't even#find the time to respond because I have 12 other things I need to be doing and those 12 other things aren't getting done because#every single thing I need to do is preventing me from doing something else and at the end of it all my health is getting worse and worse#and as it gets worse it costs more to fix and I can't get on disability without paying for a lawyer with money I literally do not have#and I'm losing it I'm literally going insane I'm pissed off because I see people blame the country I live in or the circumstances I'm in#and they act like they can't do anything and it'd be wrong of me to ask them for help#and I know when I die (and at this point it won't be long) they're going to act like this is the fault of america or some shit#they're not going to think about how they could have helped#and it sucks because some of my friends DO try to help they really do and I love them for it but it's so hard for me to see people#who don't make much money and who are also in tough situations throwing what they can at me to help me when I know people who have so much#they spend it frivolously on luxuries and I want to strangle them but then I'm not owed anything so it's not my place to tell them how#to spend their money or live their life.#and I'm tired man I'm so fucking tired I can't even stay awake for a few hours before I am too exhausted to sit upright anymore#I pass out and find myself without energy before I've even done anything and I'm only 29.
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WAIT WHAT HOW DID WHISPERS FOUND OUT ABOUT WOLFGANG?? HE WAS THE ONE WHO HAD SHOWED THE LEAST TO HAVE SENSATE CONNECTIONS!!
will Riley and Nomi were obviously found out by the bpo and known to be connected (although I don't remember how whispers learnt about Nomi and Will being connected)
sun was probably the easiest to find out that was related to them since Nomi did a lot of hacking to help her which is something Sun couldn't have done on her own (and while the point of hacking is to leave not trace of you behind every person has its own style and no doubt the obp would be on the lockout for any hacking activity that smelled like something Nomi would do)
After that Capheus and Lito would be next in that order. Both showed out of the blue extraordinary capabilities that didn't make sense they knew and clearly marked them as sensates(just no way to know who they were connected to) just like the people visiting Capheus said. The only difference was that Capheus acts were widely known while Lito only had Dani and Joaquin as witness.
And finally Wolfgang mad Kala who showed it the less. In fact they didn't show it at all.
Kala with her perfect idyllic life never needed to make use of the others abilities (besides that one time will helped her defend herself at the temple).
And Wolfgang although did use the others abilities and pulled of amazing feats thanks to them all of those instances were stuff that would be credible he did on his own because they were in line with the type of person Wolfang is and what he's capable.
So yeah... HOW THE FUCK WAS HE FOUND OUT? While it made sense Lila would tell the obp about him she also said that the Cannibal was specifically looking for him!
So how???
Ugggh it really goes way too fastpaced in the last episodes and it doesn't make sense... the Wachowski sisters would never leave such a big pothole...
I know they had to skip a lot of explanations but...
Dammit netlix
#the way it is implied Whispers could see Kala through wolfgangs connection with her also annoyed me#it had already been established the connections didnt work like that between visitors#and that one annoys me because letting him know through Wolfgang saying the name would be easiest (and kinda did anywa)#wolfganf saying kalas name woulnt take from his characters it wouldnt make him weak actually it would help him#for him to give in to not grit his teeth and bear through it like he does every time#because this is not like pther times this is extreme pain hes endurimg and it is understandable#kala wont hate him for it nor would the others they would understamd amd forgive him#its not his fault#to know there are people out there who will still love him even when hes weak (and that weakness costs them high) is what wolfgang needs#i would also love to know all that went behind to pull of the plan to kidnap whispers and jonas but thats more because it would be so cool#not because its really needed to i can fill in the gaps on my own#sense8
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There are so many easy answers for what I appreciate about Cinta. She's a badass, she's stone cold and fearless, she's the consummate rebel. Hell, she could be on rebellion propaganda posters (not that she'd ever allow that, she's gotta be able to go undercover after all)!!
I could talk about how cool she looks when she stabs Corv or when she comes down to shoot Petigar and save Nemik's life (for a little while, at least). I could talk about her A+ death glare or about how she almost laughs in Cassian's face when he hits on her. I could talk about how she's smart and resourceful and fucking strong. I could talk about how she's just, too beautiful to be real.
But everything I appreciate most about Cinta is everything we donât see. Or, more accurately, what we barely see. What we get little glimpses of in the out of focus shots when she thinks we can't see her. This is a character who buries her feelings so deep down that she can even convince herself she doesn't have them, that they can't hurt her or define her. And so much of her character is revealed in super subtle looks and expressions, in small bits of dialogue because, as Varada said, "this is someone who has been through so much and is suffocating on her own rage and anger...So why would she waste words, or her breath, talking about it."
Throughout the whole Aldhani arc she only says a handful of sentences, all short and to the point but not unfriendly. She's always shown being active and helpful around the camp, almost smiling at multiple points. On first watch you can be forgiven for having the impression that she's the warmer one between her and Vel (especially if you forget Skeen's line about her being "stone cold and fearless" while you're screeching about the blanket line (guilty as charged)). But everything turns on its head at the beginning of episode 6, when Skeen drops another lore bomb: her whole family was slaughtered by stormtroopers. Everything you thought about Cinta before that suddenly takes on a new meaning. You realize she's quiet and distant and cold because it hurts less to lose people when you don't know them. You realize she seems fearless because what else does one have to fear when everyone they loved has already been killed?
At the same time, though, I think she's actually someone who's very much driven by her fear, especially after the Adhani job. I think despite her intentions and her caution, she got attached to that team, and losing them all except for Vel was a reminder that getting close to people is dangerous. She's scared to lose any more, scared of how it will feel to lose Vel to the Empire too, so she tries to act cold and push her away. She tries, but I appreciate that she can't fully do it!! If she was really doing it, really pushing her away and putting up the barrier, she'd never take Vel's hand in the cafe. She'd never steal a glance at her when she's not looking. She'd never come away from the window. You can feel the conflict in her at all those points, can feel her trying to tell herself to stay focused on the fight, but ultimately she can't fully push it all down because, as people somehow just don't get, SHE REALLY REALLY LOVES HER!!! You can see it, if you're paying attention. She may love honor more, but there's no actual way to deny she loves Vel IF YOU'RE PAYING ATTENTION.
Something else I appreciate, perhaps more than anything, is that her name means love. I don't believe that was done unintentionally, and I really hope it's a sign that she's going to come around and realize that she can't run from love forever. It's literally part of her.
I appreciate Cinta because, to me, she is a cautionary tale. Because at the same time she's showing Vel what she needs to see -- that the Empire doesn't stop to catch its breath, so the struggle must always come first -- she's showing us the potential cost of living that way. Thankfully her other half is on top of that, and I'll get to that in a couple weeks.
I could keep going on and on about them together, but that's not fully in the realm of this prompt so I'll wrap it up. But I'd be remiss if I didn't end this by saying how much I appreciate Varada for playing Cinta. An actual human ray of sunshine playing a character who slips closer and closer to darkness. I love her work and I love how proud she is to be Cinta, to be an incredible example of representation and give us a canonically queer character of color in such a huge and important show. I'll forever be thankful for her, and I am so happy she's becoming the star she deserves to be.
Even after all this talking I know I'm leaving things out, so I hope many of the rest of you chime in with what you appreciate about Cinta. She's one of the most special characters that has ever been put to screen for me, no caveats, no asterisks.
Cinta Kaz. A survivor. A rebel. A lover. I'll cherish her always.
Character Appreciation Friday - Cinta Kaz
Name: Cinta Kaz Played by: Varada Sethu Appearances: Aldhani, The Axe Forgets, The Eye, Announcement, Narkina 5, One Way Out, Daughter of Ferrix, Rix Road
Happy Friday, gang! I'll keep this brief for now because I will definitely not be keeping it brief for her in my actual response (and also because if I look at this draft and that picture too long I'll actually break down in tears).
It's Cinta day. Appreciate her. She deserves it. You know the drill: reblog, comment, or ask!
Next week: Karis Nemik
#hardest thing about this is simply forming sentences without incoherently screaming#second hardest thing is not inserting headcanons or fic lore#that said. go read the fics please!!!!#especially the linked one#ok shutting up now
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Mike johnson has so god damn much blood on his hands, obviously Ukrainian blood, but also plenty of American blood
Refusing to renew something that helps vets exposed to atomic blast and Americans who were downwind of the fall out... it's just sick. I can't fucking stand mike johnson, he's one of the worst scum to ever be in congress, and that's fucking saying something
"Johnson refused to allow House members to vote on bipartisan legislation to renew and improve the program"
Fucking quivering little pimple seems to have a real MO for just wringing his hands while insisting it's not his fault, he just can't do the one fucking part of his job of putting shit up to a vote... oh boo hoo, so sad, he'll just have to unilaterally let funding expire on things instead of literally just putting it up to our elected representatives to see if they want to vote yay or nay
Single handedly make the choices but it's not his fault when they work out how they do
Murderer
#I'm sorry; I both genuinely hate the man and will never forgive him; so seeing this just adds more fuel to that fire#and I'm also genuinely pissed to hear that we aren't gonna be bothering to fucking help out people we fucked over#it's fucking sick#listen; I try not to talk politics too much and I try not to tell people how to vote cause it's not really my business#and cause I don't like arguing with people on tumblr; waste of my time#but for all the dems many many many many many fucking flaws; it's shit like this that makes me hate the gop#every last line about sticking up for rural or poor people or whatever is such a fucking lie#god bless our troops... unless it would cost money to compensate them for making them stand near atomic detonations#at every turn I see fucking simple easy decent bipartisan policy shot down but fuckers like johnson; who is the gop at this point#fuck em; can't stand em#go fucking vote if you can in whatever country you're in; try and get a mail in ballot for your sake#I'm still not gonna tell you how to vote but uh... maybe keep in mind when someone's hands are fucking caked in blood#and keep in mind what kind of company people keep in their political party#fucking murder#cause inaction is murder as sure as if he stood their and kept them from getting treatment directly#removing the funding to let these people get cancers and stuff operated on#it's the same as murder#and again; that's not even going back to him personally; like literally it was just him and him alone#holding up aid to Ukraine for months because he refused to put it to the floor#where... oh look... once it was put to the floor it passed just fine (with a fucking tiktok ban added)#(hate that site but I hate government overreach with this kinda shit more)#one of the few people in this world I think I actually truly hate#I'm never gonna fucking stomach the 'he was so brave for holding a vote' shit lie#bullshit; if he had a spine or a soul he would have brought Ukraine aid to the floor before funding ran out#just like if he had a spine or a soul he'd have brought this radiation victim funding to the floor before it ran out#almost like there's a fucking pattern here of him squirming like a pus filled pimple simpering about how he just can't do his job#can't do the one fucking thing he's supposed to do and bring shit to the floor for a vote#I have more opinions on him; but if I said how I really feel right now I think it would get me put on a list#and... sadly just cause of who I am; if I were in a room alone with him I think I'd just lay into him instead of beating his ass#but he's a fucking monster and reading this story just now... I'm almost seeing red with how much it's pissing me off
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1. itâs my 24th birthday today, so my goal of being published by the time iâm 25 is now a one year looming monster, but i never specified what kind of published and am currently looking in various literary magazines that are recommended for writers who have yet to be published, so iâm surprisingly confident that i can make it work? and tbh even if whatever i write isnât officially published before my 25th birthday, if i have someone in the process of being published then iâll be happy!! no matter what though, iâm gonna try to be proud of myself for at least giving it my best shot!!
2. i honestly love that my birthday is on the ides of march because the ides of march meme shitposting is only a thing on tumblr but it also being my birthday makes it easier to like. be excited about the ides of march outside of tumblr. like even in person i can be like âitâs my birthday! iâm an ides of march babe (:â and if someone is like oh whatâs that? or if they say something along the lines of oh like julius caesar? i can be like yep!! and even if itâs a small thing outside of tumblr it brings me immense enjoyment and amusement being able to bring it up off of tumblr
3. transportation situation has been very rough since june 2023 when i totalled my car, my gap insurance are being assholes and i ended up putting my foot down on the phone with them yesterday which iâm pretty proud of because i am NOT a confrontational person (something iâve been working on this past year, so seeing some improvement with my ability to hold my ground and not be a pushover yesterday was very cool!!) i was told iâd get a response from them by friday next week no matter what, and if i donât then friday of next week i will continue to wreak havoc upon them. but my moms car which iâve been using since my accident broke down yesterday, hopefully itâs fixable but my parents were saying it might be done for, so trying to think of how iâm gonna get to work next week is kind of stressing me out lmao, but for now iâm just gonna focus on enjoying my birthday the best i can because i donât want to start off being 24 with an overwhelming anxiety for something that wonât be a potential issue until monday. plus i already messaged my boss today to let her know that iâm going to do everything i can to make it work out but just so sheâs in the loop and knows of the potential of me not being able to make my morning shifts (one of my coworkers said sheâs more than happy to give me a ride for our afternoon shifts which does help relieve some of the stress!) and i told her iâd let her know for sure sunday so that if necessary she can have time to figure out someone to fill in for me in the mornings!
overall: life is weird and i ended being 23 yesterday with a shitty situation but a positive outlook and i am going to enjoy my first day of being 24 no matter what because honestly i fucking earned it. happy friday everyone, i hope itâs a good day for you and me both!
#aritalks#i did cry a little bit when i first woke up because i dont really know what to do about work and also i hate not having a car i can use#not only because of the work aspect but also getting my license when i was 18 gave me a freedom i didnât have before#and i donât like having to rely on other people just to like go to the fucking store or something yk#but then my best friend/roommate messaged me happy birthday and i was like fuck it! today is going to be a good day!#the stressful uncertainties can wait until tomorrow#also one of my best friends who hasnât said happy birthday to me the past two years#(not intentionally im p sure they were just busy on my birthdays the past two years#and then had that moment of âoh shit i didnt send a message fuck i think its too late nowâ which i totally get bc anxiety things yk)#was one of the first people to message me happy birthday!!#iâm also hoping to still be able to go see my mom and then stay the night at my dads tonight#so i can see both my parents and also my baby siblings for my birthday#my dads working today but after he texted happy birthday i sent him a text asking if he thinks we could still make it work#my mom is asleep still i think (she called me at midnight and left a voicemail singing happy birthday!! but her sleep schedule has been all#over the place recently so iâm waiting until 11:30 to call her which is in like 30 mins)#but she said something yesterday about driving out to me to give me a hug and also bring me my diabetes stuff that got delivered#(her house is my mailing address because i know itâs not going to change bc itâs my great grandparents house that sheâs partially inhereting#when my great grandpa dies but since i have moved out of my dads my address has changed twice and i didnt have a mailbox at my last place so#just for the sake of consistency and not having to worry about important shit getting sent to the wrong address iâve had her house as my#mailing address since i moved out of my dads at 19)#so i think iâm gonna ask her if she can just pick me up instead so i can go to her house w her and hang out with her#and hopefully my dad will be able to at least stop by with my siblings so i can see them too#iâd like to stay the night with them but if we canât make it happen then i can also stay the night w my mom and hopefully tomorrow figure#out the car situation. might have to rent a car for a week if i can afford it? best case scenario is my moms car can be fixed but i still#dont know whats wrong with it ik there are two potential problems and one is fixable the other is not#the fixable one would cost like $150-$400 to fix depending on if we get a used part or a new one#if its $150-$200 ish i can probably afford to pay for the whole thing or at least most of it#but if its more than that hopefully my dad or one of my family members can help#and i can just pay them back in like $50 increments with my next few paychecks#just realized i said i wouldnt worry abt the car thing today and also i think im at tag limit to iâll stop now lmao xoxo gossip girl â€ïž
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Fuck guys⊠the urge to write a fic that puts Anakin in a situation where he has to examine his flaws critically and question whether his actions are a proper reflection of his true morals is soooo strong⊠but am I the man for the job⊠that is the question
#seriously Iâm a little obsessed#does Anakin act based on his own moral code? or has he been borrowing other peopleâs ideals his whole life?#is the âhelp others at all costsâ ideal still present underneath everything Palpatine has manipulated him into believing?#when push comes to shove. when he really has to take a proper look at himself#will he choose to do what his mother taught him to do or what his adult male close friend whoâs groomed him has been teaching him?#are Jedi teachings even relevant to Anakin?#my thoughts
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